So very tired...

I’m tired of being so tired. I’m tired of being in pain. I’m tired of feeling nothing. I’m tired of being overwhelmed with emotion. I’m tired of having so much to say. I’m tired of having no one to listen. I’m tired of believing. I’m tired of having no faith. I’m tired of trying so hard. I’m tired of feeling that I haven’t tried hard enough. I’m tired of having so many questions. I’m tired of having all the answers. I’m tired of being impulsive. I’m tired of feeling that I have no pulse at all. I’m tired of wanting so much. I’m tired of needing so little. I’m tired of being so independent. I’m tired of feeling so needy. I’m tired of being so damn smart. I’m tired of acting so very stupid. I’m tired of being perfect. I’m tired of having so many flaws. I’m tired of caring too much. I’m tired of feeling numb. I’m tired of having to fight when I know I’m right. I’m tired of being wrong. I’m tired of making all the effort. I’m tired of feeling like I’m running in circles. I’m tired of sitting still. I’m tired of being misled. I’m tired of feeling forced to follow. I’m tired of being so busy. I’m tired of feeling so lazy. I’m tired of feeling overwhelmed. I’m tired of being under-whelmed. I’m tired of not having enough hours in the day to get everything done. I’m tired of having too much time on my hands. I’m tired of all the attention. I’m tired of being ignored. I’m tired of taking one step forward. I’m tired of being pushed three steps back. I’m tired of running from my past. I’m tired of wanting to relive my memories. I’m tired of having the ones I love continually slip in and out of my life. I’m tired of the people that just won’t go away. I’m tired of longing for adventure. I’m tired of not setting foot outside my front door. I’m tired of feeling as though life has passed me by. I’m tired of feeling that I am waiting for my life to start. I’m tired of being a contradiction.
I need an eternity of rest to overcome this exhaustion.