What the Bleep Do We Know?

As part of the "journey" I have embarked on, it was suggested that I watch the above-mentioned movie. It’s kind of a documentary about quantum physics and the effect that our attitudes and beliefs have on our bodies. It’s a very interesting movie, but not something you’d watch for entertainment’s sake. I’ve decide to share some of the quote, questions, and other information that this movie presents…
Have you ever seen yourself through the eyes of someone you have become?
The real trick to life in not to be in the "know", but to be in the mystery.
The brain does not know the difference between what it sees and what it remembers.
The only movie that is playing inside our brains is what we have the ability to see.
We can not see the things we have no knowledge of.
We choose our experiences; therefore we create our reality.
Addiction is the feeling of a chemical rush that has cascaded through our body.
"You live in the past. Everything with you is about what happened. You have too many memories clouding your vision."
God is the embodiment of the spirit of all things everywhere.
The brain does not know the difference between what it feels and what it remembers.
The concept of love is stored in a vast neuro-network. We build the concept of love from many different ideas. Some people have love connected to disappointment. When they think about love, they experience the memory of pain, sorrow, anger, and even rage. Rage may be linked to hurt which may be linked to a specific person which then is connected back to love.
We tell ourselves a story about what the outside world is.
Any information that we take in is always colored by an experience that we’ve had and an emotional response.
Emotions aren’t good. Emotions aren’t bad. Emotions are designed to reinforce chemically something into long-term memory.
There is a chemical made in our bodies that matches every emotion we feel.
The cell is the smallest unit of consciousness in the body.
If you can’t control the condition of your emotional state that means you must be addicted to it.
"So, how can anyone say they’re in love with a specific person? They’re only in love with the anticipation of feeling the emotions they’re addicted to. The same person could fall out of favor the next week by not complying."
We are emotions and emotions are us. Emotions are life. They color the richness of our experience. It’s our addictions that are the problem. Addiction to emotions aren’t just psychological, they’re biochemical. Heroin uses the same cell receptors that our emotions use, so it’s easy to see how we can become addicted to any emotion.
After years of emotional abuse on our cells, they become unable to absorb the needed vitamins and minerals they need, or expel toxins and waste.
Our thoughts and emotions affect our bodies.
A lot of problems that are labeled as psychological are simply a culmination of bad choices. People need to be instructed on how to make different choices.

Thought for the day

If you can find a path with no obstacles, it probably doesn't lead anywhere
- Frank A Clark

Thought for the day

Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards.
- Soren Kierkegaard (1813-1855)

Go to Hell!

Join me, won't you? I could use the company.

poems by Tony Erikson

oh wah ta jer ki'am
written 03-19-94
what is wrong in my mind
that i think
perhaps not every person i trust
is going to screw me
maybe i'm just naive
as a matter of fact i am
i'm trying to please everyone
except myself
so what's the problem
is it you
is it me
i don't make the rules
should i really care who does
i'm not being unreasonable
maybe a little
not much
not taking much stock
in appearances and such
i live for the day when i don't have anyone to impress
i can be my own person and it's alright
i can think how i want to
i can be who i am
but who am i
i'm not rational
i'm a putz
it's all a big blur and i think
oh what a jerk i am

loving intoxication
written 03-19-94
a grandiose thought though never conceived
a fluid motion thought never retrieved
a walk through my mind i never believed
in any situation i ever achieved
i brought in a butterfly covered in time
by a thick layer of warmth almost divine
why do the moments go running away
like so many cowboys pitch-forking hay
wandering through the fields that coat my mind
i find little words
that sum up every thought i ever anticipate having
and every situation i've ever been in
isn’t it peculiar that i want everything
i long for everything that i know that i cannot have
everything i may never have
sit awhile and hear my ramblings
you may learn something you thought you could not
true i may be impaired
i may be quite lost
but never have i felt so free to express all the feelings i feel
just me
so maybe you will know before i die
all the things that i think
or maybe i'm just drunk and not quite worthy of your praise
but i really don't care
do i
i love all the feelings i'm having
so is it a sin that i feel what i'm feeling
oh fuck it you win.

angry and alone
written 02-18-94
another day
no word
greedy self pity
reciprocated coldness
youthful rebellion
anyone hear me
no one cares
don't blame them
another day
lonely
overstepping reason
nightmares of the weak
emptiness remains

Thought for the day

Silence is often misinterpreted, but never misquoted.

ANGRY AND ALONE

Always trying so hard
Never succeeding
Growing more and more frustrated
Realizing that I am all alone
Yearning for someone to notice
Anyone care?
No one does
Dying a little more inside each day
Answers to questions that were never asked
Longing to understand
On the edge
No one will catch me when I fall
Everyone is so busy; I am irrelevant.

***This is an adaptation of a poem I can't quite remember***

My eternal struggle

My heart wants what it wants...
My mind knows what it knows...
My body needs what it needs...
My soul yearns for harmony.

So Now You Know

I’m a big Jeff Anderson fan, and this weekend I re-watched his movie with the above-mentioned title. There are two scenes that contain dialog that really strike a cord (where does that expression come from, anyway – and what does it really mean?) with me…
"Guys and girls are just two different animals. Cats and dogs, if you will. Guys are like dogs – not too bright, like to ride in cars, and they hump anyone’s leg two seconds after they meet them. Girls are like the cats – mysterious, kind of stand-offish, it takes a long time to win them over, but once you do, they’re all rubbin’ on your leg and purring – showing you the love you. Now – do cats love dogs? For the most part, no. Why? Because they’re two different animals. It’s unnatural. That’s not to say that there aren’t cats and dogs that do get along – but it takes special circumstances. They need to be raised together, or one of them needs to be blind or something…."

"I left because you took me for granted. I left because you didn’t appreciate me – because I was sick of feeling bad about myself because of you. You think that’s pretty ridiculous, don’t you? So did I at first. You keep saying that I’m the one that broke it off – we both know that’s not true. I’m just the one that said it out loud. You were scared? Scared of what? So you’re not cold and callus? You’re just stupid? Do you have any idea what you’ve put me through? Why couldn’t you just share your "big ideas’ with me? Instead you acted indifferent and made me feel like I was living in some fucking dream world! I’ve given you chances, and if you’re asking for another one – the answer is no. Because you lost me long before YOU called if off. When was the last time you brought me flowers? Or sent me love note? Or said ‘I love you’ before I did? I know you love me – and I know flowers and love notes don’t prove that you love someone – but it helps to reassure a person. It tells them that you’re thinking of them – for no reason at all. Now? You’re willing to start doing those things now? Don’t you understand that it’s too late? I don’t want anything from you now."