Round is a shape… but not the shape I want to be…

Due to the fact that I’m lazy, unmotivated, tend to eat a lot of junk, and all of these things have been compounded due to my poor health, I have recently become very unhappy with the roundness that is enveloping my body. In a three-week period, I gained 8 pounds! This motivated me to join the department’s team for the company’s "Biggest Loser" competition.
Here is my progress so far:

Starting weight: Friday 11/23/07: 152 lbs. (yikes!)
Week 1: Friday 11/30/07: weight 147.2 lbs.

I’m not proudly displaying these numbers, because there was a time when I was barely 120 lbs. & in the best shape of my life. Yes, I know I’m not 21 anymore, but the 33-year-old remembers the body I used to have… I’m putting this up because I want to show my progress & I can use all the support I can get.

Chapstick Kiss

I'm sending you a chapstick kiss
To show you that I care

I wish and pray to God above
That soon I will be there

You are the angel that is in my life
And I want to let you know

If you fall I will catch you, Jenn
You never have to be alone

From this day forward, it's you and me
Our hearts have found a home

I swear to you, my words are true
And girl I promise this

Together, we will be beautiful
Please, accept my chapstick kiss!
CBC2007

Slowly

You told me "It's just you and mom"
And it's always been that way

The lonliness that was your life
is gonce for good... today

Right now, it's true we are just friends
we have not been face to face

That's alright, the day will come
All in its time and place

Let's take it slow, lets do it right
No need to push or shove

It always starts with the best of friends
And slowly turns to love

I feel as though it's not just chance
Somehow... it's meant to be

That you, and Shirley and Herman too
you have all been sent to me!!

CBC 2007

HAPPY TOGETHER

Having someone you can be yourself around
Always succeeding in enjoying a smile together
Putting each other first
Partners thru the good and the bad
Yawning together as the sun rises (long nite)
Two against the world
Only you and me
Growing more together every day
Enjoying each others life experiences to become closer
Total understanding in just a look
Here I am for you
Everytime you fall, I’ll catch you
Reminding you how important you are to me daily
CBC 2007

He wrote this to contrast my ANRGY AND ALONE

A Horror Story

I went to the school tomorrow to take my entrance testing (which I scored 100% in each area), apply for financial aid, and register for classes. I had about an hour and a half to waste before I had to leave for work, so I went home. While I was sitting on the couth knitting, I heard a peculiar noise come from the sugar cage. Since I’ve known that Squiggle’s Joey would be emerging any day now, I thought perhaps that was what was happening, and got up to check. Just as I approached the cage, one of my males emerged from the sleeping pouch with the baby in his mouth. At once I knew something was terribly wrong. He scampered down to the bottom of the cage, where at first I couldn’t tell if he was cleaning it, or chewing on it. So I took one of their little blankets, and got it away from him, only to find that it’s little arm had been chewed off. It was dead. I know that it’s a sugar glider’s nature to cannibalize their young when they don’t survive, but I just couldn’t stand the thought of that. I wrapped the little thing up in the blanket, and disposed of his/her little body. It was a horrible sight and experience.

Dear Mr. President

I heard the greatest song today! It's one where Pink is voicing her opinion about the state of out nation, one that I share. As you know, I am not a fan of our "leader", I think he's done alot of damage to this wonderful country, and I will be releived when, a year from now, that he is removed from office. I read a bumper sticker the other day that said "Clinton ruined a dress, Bush ruined a nation".

Dear Mr. President,

Come take a walk with me.

Let's pretend we're just two people and

You're not better than me.

I'd like to ask you some questions if we can speak honestly.

What do you feel when you see all the homeless on the street?

Who do you pray for at night before you go to sleep?

What do you feel when you look in the mirror?

Are you proud?

How do you sleep while the rest of us cry?

How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye?

How do you walk with your head held high?

Can you even look me in the eye

And tell me why?

Dear Mr. President,

Were you a lonely boy?

Are you a lonely boy?

Are you a lonely boy?

How can you say

No child is left behind?

We're not dumb and we're not blind.

They're all sitting in your cells

While you pave the road to hell.

What kind of father would take his own daughter's rights away?

And what kind of father might hate his own daughter if she were gay?

I can only imagine what the first lady has to say

You've come a long way from whiskey and cocaine.

How do you sleep while the rest of us cry?

How do you dream when a mother has no chance to say goodbye?

How do you walk with your head held high?

Can you even look me in the eye?

Let me tell you 'bout hard work

Minimum wage with a baby on the way

Let me tell you 'bout hard work

Rebuilding your house after the bombs took them away

Let me tell you 'bout hard work

Building a bed out of a cardboard box

Let me tell you 'bout hard work

Hard work

Hard work

You don't know nothing 'bout hard work

Hard work

Hard work

Oh

How do you sleep at night?

How do you walk with your head held high?

Dear Mr. President,

You'd never take a walk with me.

Would you?

Coming soon...

Squiggle's Joey is going to be coming out of her pouch any day now! I'm going to document it's growth by posting pictures every couple of days. Today I could see a tiny little tail hanging out of her pouch!

Just thinking...

So, I’ve had a few things pop into my head over the last few days. The first is to maybe transfer my credits and start a veterinary technology program. The simple fact is that I’m not happy where I’m at right now, and I’m having my doubts as to whether or not I really want to finish my degree in laboratory science, or focus on something I may find more fulfilling. The second is that I might like to join a boxing gym. I really need to get into shape (I know, I know, round is a shape, but not the shape I want to be) and it kind of sounds like fun. There’s a local gym that I’m thinking about checking out. The question is whether or not I would actually go. Maybe I can convince my friend Diane to join with me.

Written just for me!

Let's Wish

Who is the girl from the Great Salt Lake
That has reached her hand out for me to take

It seems she has cast a spell on me
She is in my mind, she is all I see

I think she is sent from up above
She is full of honesty, truth and love

And I’ve been alone for quite a while
It sure feels good, she makes my heart smile

I know its time to live again
To see the sun, and to feel the wind

To open up my heart and soul
It takes two halves to make a whole

I’ll take your hand, Jenn, let’s walk awhile
Lets share a story, some wine, a smile

I want to know just who you are
Together let’s with upon a star.
CBC 2007


And...
My heart's been broken
My soul's felt hollow
But I'll never give up
Because it's love I follow!


It just goes to prove that beautiful things can grow in the ugliest of places.
Thank you Christopher

She's already gone...

Mom doesn’t leave the country for 11 more days, but she shut off her phone today, so it seems like she’s already gone. It’s kind of sad; you never realized how much you take the little things for granted until they’re gone. The simple convince of being able to pick up the phone and hear her voice whenever I need to; I don’t realize how much that means to me until I that time of year rolls around when communication with her is not so simple. I miss you already mom.