Hhhhmmmmmmm.....

Anti-Social Behavior Disorder

Persistent lying or stealing
Apparent lack of remorse or empathy for others
Inability to keep jobs or stay in school
Impulsivity and/or recklessness
Lack of realistic, long-term goals - an inability or persistant failure to develop and execute long-term plans and goals
Poor behavior controls - expressions of irritability, annoyance,impatience,threats, aggression, and verbal abuse; inadequate control of anger and temper
Recurring difficulties with the law
Tendency to violate the boundries and rights of others
Substance abuse
Aggressive, often violent behavior; prone to getting involved in fights
Inability to tolerate boredom
Disregard for the safety of self or others
Persistant attitude of irrespinsibility
Difficulties with authority figures
Borrows money without repaying it
Arrogant and overly confident
Failure to plan ahead

A person with antisocial behavior might appear very charming and outgoing at first. However, friendships and relationships are hard to maintain as it becomes clear that it is too difficult to be close to this person. What first seems to be daring and fun becomes dangerous and thoughtless.

People exhibiting antisocial behavior are extremely selfish and self-centered.

This behavior in adults is not easily treated by psychotherapy or medication, as there is little motivation for adults to change. If you suspect an adult with this disorder it is best to avoid him as much as possible to protect yourself and your family.

Geee..... this kind of sounds like someone I know.

It's been a long time...

I wish I would have kept up on this. I wish I would have kept writing. Anyone that would view the last two years of my life based on this would think I live a pretty meager existence. Does Jenn still exist? Where has she been? Has her life been so uneventful that it's simply not worth writing about?

The truth of the matter is that I've lost the motivation. The last two years have been the most dramatic of my life. The most wonderful and the most horrific. I wish I would have taken the time to document. I wish I would have taken the time to share. But here I am now, wondering where to begin...

Do I start at the beginning and work my way forward? That seems to make the most sense, but there is so much to write about that I fear I would leave out things I would later regret, either that or get frustrated with how long it took to write it all out and simply give up again.

Maybe it doesn't matter...since I'm simply writing for myself as a way to get it all out. Lord knows I can't talk to the one person I need to about all of these things... I have so much hurt, anger, and resentment built up that I think I'll explode if I can't find some way to express it somehow.