Crying

Sometimes it hits me, right out of the blue, that I'm not the person that I thought I was. I'm not the independant woman that is OK doing everything by herself. I'm not the one that is perfectly content with her feline compamionship. I'm the woman that is sitting here in tears because my heart is hurting. I'm the one that has finally let someone get so close that I can't imagine continuing to live the life that I have known for so very long...

Last weekend

I had an amazing time this weekend. On Friday I flew from Salt Lake to Seattle to Spokane, where I took this amazing photo:


From the airport I drove to PAML for my interview:




Then I drove from Spokane to Rathdrum, where I hung out with Carolyn and Ken until Chris got home.

On Saturday I got the official tour, we went to the lake:




Then we went to the park & took a walk:





Then we went to dinner and back home.

Sunday before I had to head to the airport, we took a few more pictures and said goodbye:


At the airport, I made an exciting discovery... They sell WINE in the giftshops! I bought this bottle just because I loved the picture:

Just on of the reasons that makes him so special...

I was having a really bad today, and he knew it, so the next thing I knew this came across my email:

Your smile is locked away in my mind
I picture your face when I need to unwind

I love you , sweet jenn, and i wonder just how
I lived for so long without your love, until now

when you get feeling stressed out, and you just want to scream,
Remember im here, and our loves not a dream.

I love you sooooooooooooooo much, my girl.

Just the two of us

I have tons to write about my visit to N. Idaho, but until I get a few minutes to sit down & tell you all about it, here are a few pictures.

Namaste

The time has finally come...

Christopher got his smiley face last week. In prison terms this means he was given his exact date and time of his release. He will walk out of those gate at 8am on 3/17/2008; a free man. And I, along with his parents will be there to greet him. I dread the drive, especially after what happened the last time I went up to see him, but it feels like we've been waiting for this day forever, and there isn't the slightest chance that I'll miss it. I know that our relationship has been confusing to some, and I appreciate all of your concerns. It has been difficult to explain the situation, especially since it hasn't really begun yet. Once we have time to get to know each other in person, in the real world, I'll better be able to tell our story. But for now, know that I am happy, for the first time in my life I finally feel like everything I've been waiting for is within my grasp.

The One

Valentines Day is the time to say
I love you Jenn, more every day

You make me feel loved and secure
For you I’ve been searching, of this I am sure

The way we have bonded, and our
Lives have become one

It makes me look forward to our
Day in the sun

Sweet Jenn, our day is coming
Our time to rejoice

In our love for each other
Our hearts making the choice

I will be your true love
My heart says you’re mine

Please love me forever
You’re the one, Valentine!

I love you Jennifer!

CBC 2008